قبل الفجر ,,

I look at my self, and I don't see that person that who i have those hopes and dreams.
I don't know what happened to me, I always look back and I say that I made the mistake and I think that is it not a big deal for me.
I wake up and see that I made that mistake and start to the worse feeling ever,
I can't stay like this, I always say it's going to be gone. It;s going to be gone.
and what happened happened for a reason.
I don't see that reason and I still think that I am done  , i am so done.
I can't think clearly.
I can't sleep like other people.
I believe now nothing is important for my life. I made that mistake and I still think that I have made that mistake that I can't  feel good about it.
,,,
This life is not worth living anymore...

Sitting here with my Family.

I've gotta say, I'm sitting here with my Family and they are talking.

Gotta go .

I don't know what to do, It been really long time.

I 'm done with waiting, I can't really imagine what will happen if I miss it.

Miss the wedding. All the people that I wanna see we be there at the wedding.

It's not an event that happen on every year. Something tells me that I need to be there.

I'm waiting for an acceptance that might take time.

I will be sad if I miss it, I guess.

Goodbye

It's true that saying goodbye is hard. The Last tow days, I said to two of my best friends goodbye. They have left to their country. I miss them, I feel like I'm alone without them.

However, I believe that's the way that we live. 

The structure is simple to understand, and yet it is hard to do it constantly.
The more you do the more you get. No luck. The luck comes when you work your butt off, basically. That I might say it's luck.

Simple. 

Oh, Yarab

I'm dying now, I need to pass.